Crimson Sox All-Star Jarren Duran says he tried suicide throughout psychological well being struggles

Boston’s All-Star outfielder Jarren Duran mentioned he tried to take his personal life as he struggled together with his psychological well being through the 2021 and 2022 seasons.

Within the Netflix docuseries The Clubhouse: A Yr With the Crimson Sox the 28-year-old mentioned struggles together with his kind throughout his rookie season in 2021 deeply have an effect on him. His life was saved when he tried to shoot himself however the gun didn’t go off.

“I used to be already listening to it from followers,” Duran says within the sequence, which premieres within the US on Tuesday. “And what they mentioned to me, [it was like], ‘I’ve advised myself 10 instances worse within the mirror.’ That was a very powerful time for me. I didn’t even need to be right here anymore.

“… I obtained to a degree the place I used to be sitting in my room, I had my rifle and I had a bullet and I pulled the set off and the gun clicked, however nothing occurred. So, to today, I feel God simply didn’t let me take my very own life as a result of I critically don’t know why it didn’t go off. I took it as an indication of, ‘I may need to be right here for a purpose’, in order that’s once I began to look myself within the mirror after the gun didn’t go off. I used to be like, ‘Do I need to be right here or do I not need to be right here?’ That occurred for a purpose and clearly, you’re right here for a purpose so let’s be the way in which you need to be and play [the way] you need to play and stay the way in which you need to stay.”

Crimson Sox CEO Sam Kennedy praised Duran’s honesty. “Jarren’s choice to share his story is an act of braveness that reaches far past baseball,” Kennedy mentioned in an announcement. “By opening up, he’s displaying others who could also be struggling that they’re not alone and that asking for assist isn’t simply OK, it’s important.”

Duran mentioned he now journals to take care of his psychological well being and writes reminders to assist himself focus.

“On [the tape on] my left wrist, I write, ‘Fuck ‘em,’ as a result of it’s me telling my demons, ‘You’re not going to faze me’,” Duran says within the docuseries. “And on my proper wrist, I write, ‘Nonetheless alive’ as a result of I’m nonetheless right here and I’m nonetheless preventing.”

Duran had one of the best season of his profession in 2024 and was named an All-Star for the primary time, recording profession highs in residence runs (21), runs (111), RBI (75) and stolen bases (34). He was additionally suspended two video games for shouting a homophobic slur at a fan who heckled him. Duran later apologized for utilizing what he referred to as “a very horrific phrase” and issued an apology to the LGBTQ neighborhood.